Which advice to take…
So… I’m one date in. He’s a nice guy. He lives close by. Sure he has a strange job but he’s genuinely really lovely.
Friday morning I wake up at half 9. Unusual for me. I ate (I eat a lot these days!) and slung on my jogging gear and jogged in to town to pick up foundation and blusher. I get a text.
‘tell me all the details!’ – D
I tell her how I liked him and while I was wittering on he kissed me.
I get another text from someone else.
‘how’d it go?’ – N
I reply ‘I like him. I’m seeing him again on Monday’
‘aren’t you mean’t to play it all aloof’ – N
I reply (and perhaps a little harshly) ‘I’m too old for that shit.’
‘I just thought men like the chase.’ – N
‘But eventually the chase has to wear of – then what? They lose interest? I’d rather get on from the start.’
This small conversation really threw me. Was I going about it all wrong? I hate game playing. I hate the phoning someone who will constantly divert your call to voicemail but never has any issue with calling you when they need something. Or who can hold out not calling the other the longest. Boring, petty games of heartache and anxiety. I’ve been in them all. I’m sick of it. I’m too old for it and I know what I want these days. I don’t want 6 month affairs. I’d genuinely like something a little more meaningful and solid. I’d like the other person to be as interested. I see friends moving on and I just want a small slice of that.I’m sick of feeling like the disaster that can’t hold down a relationship.
BAKING!
I haven’t done a lot of baking recently. Plenty of jogging and eating easy food but not much baking. I made some peppermint creams which my ma loves.
icing sugar
water
green food colouring
peppermint flavouring
the consistency ideally needs to be so you can pick it up so it’s still a little wet but it doesn’t stick to your hands. Put on to a baking sheet about the size of 10 pence pieces.
The other baking I did was some allspice, banana and sultana cookies. They didn’t turn out like the chewy plain ones I usually make – they came out fluffier but they smell good.
80z butter
8oz sugar
12oz s/r flour
2 chopped bananas
dash of all spice (I was hefty with it!)
2 handfuls of sultanas
mixy mix mix and put on baking tray which ever size you desire and bake in a 200 degree oven for 15 mins.
